So this us such a cliche journal entry ~ an update of life.

I just deleted my LiveJournal. I kept my life in that thing and I'm scared that a parent, psychologist, psychiatrist, teacher, or peer that i dont trust is going to make an account and find me and add me as friend just to read about my personal life. There was some pretty bad stuff in there and I've been to 2 different mental hospitals so I know id go again if they found it.

I may create another journal but just update it with the clean/good side of my life. I'm not going to say the sorts of things that were in my [now deleted] journal because my brother and peers know about my deviantArt and have told me they check on it on occasion, read my journal...send me a note if you're interested but if you know me personally irl there is still one specific thing I can't tell you. I'm sorry, I'm totally freaking out now.

So I'm trying to cheer up and get my mind off of.../things/...by listening to Owl City and drawing with tons of colors in Ps (CS3) haha....im exploring new techniques and doing random shit idk its fun.

Other than that, I need to do a ton of homework. But other than art and homework, the only other thing I've been up to is singing, I guess? Idk. I got fitted for my Carolina Company (chorus) dress tuesday...it makes me look soooo much fatter than i am, I neeed to lose weight, its awful UGH!!!

Anyways, I'm trying to relax but theres so much going on I just feel like thoughts are rushing through my head so fast it's not even funny and that's why one of my 3 psychiatrists (damn, three? im a fail at life haha) thought that I was bi-polar, since the speeding thoughts all at once going so fast you cant even focus on one thought is a major symptom of bi-polar disorder.

So Im gonna shut up and go make a new livejournal account cuz I dont feel like doin hw.

Oh btw these are AWSM tutorials and I really need to feature this amazing account cuz i can burn so much time just looking through their stuff. Im sure most of you have heard about them and seen their account, they're very big and for obvious reasons. They really break down each step and provide screenshots and are very organized with all of their work. Ive learned so much through their tuts. and soo yeah check them out: =photoshop-tutorials